I’ve been in a horrible creative slump lately for a number of reasons. Primarily because every time I get on Facebook or Instagram someone has copied my work and not even bothered to drop my name or tag me. It’s been so depressing. I just want to say thank you to everyone who has done this to me since the end result is that you robbed me of the one joy in my life. You think I’m being dramatic… well… no I’m not. I have one mental release in life. One stress reliever. One way to calm my mind. And that is creating. Everyone keeps saying to me “it’s such a compliment!” And I keep saying it’s only complimentary when someone likes my work enough to copy it AND they mention where they got the pattern from.
So I’ve spent at least two weeks maybe more unable to produce a single thing. I pick up my quilling tool and put it down. I organize my paper and just stare at it, not caring. Every time I contemplate making something all I can see are all the times I’m going to go to a quilling page on Facebook and seeing someone posting a copy of it and taking all the credit. Or Instagram. It’s just as bad there. A woman who copied my lion recently had the gall to get angry at ME for blocking her on Instagram. And another woman copied Rising Phoenix and then got interviewed by a paper company where she said it was her favorite original creation. Her biggest accomplishment. Well of course accomplishments come easy when someone else has done all the work for you in advance.
I think the other part of my slump is that the act of NOT creating puts me in a terrible state of mind. So double-whammy. Last night I did another anatomical and just didn’t feel that spark I normally do. It was like having sex without the orgasm. I made a fish this morning that I was really excited about but when I got to the step of hand-painting the scales I just didn’t have it in me. I might finish it up. I’m not sure.
And then this evening I was going stir-crazy. I needed something but I didn’t know how to satisfy it. So after cleaning and doing dishes and pacing around the house a few dozen times I finally broke down and dug out some paper. I wanted to make something completely unique. One that combined media types. One that I have never once not ever seen done before. And this is the end result. I did feel better when it was done. At least I feel like I’m working towards a happier state of mind.